Grief

     Grief can be ugly.  It can take away your dignity and leave you crying in the Walmart parking lot.  It can make you paranoid to where you think people are either talking about you (oh, poor Susan) or ignoring you (man, I'm tired of her whining and neediness).  And grief can make you say things you would have never said.  I know, because I have said things that hurt those closest to me.  For that I am very sorry.
     For now, Grief is my new BFF.  Hopefully someday soon that friendship will be replaced.